Do I hope that if feeling disguises itself as thought I shall feel less? Aren’t all these notes the senseless writhings of a man who won’t accept the fact that there is nothing we can do with suffering except to suffer it?
My massive breakfast this morning. Grapefruit, Almond butter pancakes, chicken sausages.

My massive breakfast this morning. Grapefruit, Almond butter pancakes, chicken sausages.

(Above is sesame teriyaki drumstick with deviled eggs made out of just the yolk, avocado, paprika, hot sauce.  Cucumbers and carrots with tahini dressing)
Daily Log
1/29
After class-Larabar
After Rehearsal- ground bison w/ peppers and mushrooms, deviled eggs
Home-Big salad w/ tahini dressing(sesame paste w/ oil garlic cumin and salt, mixed with water).  some grapes
After “sting” rehearsal- almond butter pancakes w/ banana, egg, pumpkin, coconut flour. a couple of turkey sausages. grapes…..Then I baked about 5 chicken drumsticks in sesame teriyaki dressing, coconut flour, and the tahini dressing.  Proceeded to eat 3 of them and saved two for today.
1/30
Woke up around the same time as a weekday and made the almond butter pancakes and a couple of turkey sausages.
After morning “sting” rehearsal- free bombay chicken salad at cosi’s.
around 4- (picture ^ )the drumsticks and deviled w/ cucumbers and carrots, some grapes and a turkey sausage.
I’m happy with the progress I’ve made on the cooking and eating right.  The only thing that has sucked is the timing.  After class is a perfect time to eat some sugar (larabar) but with rehearsals 15 minutes later which sometimes include heavy dancing, it just doesn’t work.  what can you do? stop being anal…yes…make some lemonade out of the whole situation…yes…
Each day cooking is getting easier and I’m trying new things so I figure if I can’t keep up with technology I will be able to at least cook.  A rare commodity nowadays.
I also got to see Sting in rehearsal for the 153rd anniversary at the academy of music.  Nothing spectacular except that he played desert rose which was cool, otherwise I know there are bigger fans out there than me.

(Above is sesame teriyaki drumstick with deviled eggs made out of just the yolk, avocado, paprika, hot sauce.  Cucumbers and carrots with tahini dressing)

Daily Log

1/29

After class-Larabar

After Rehearsal- ground bison w/ peppers and mushrooms, deviled eggs

Home-Big salad w/ tahini dressing(sesame paste w/ oil garlic cumin and salt, mixed with water).  some grapes

After “sting” rehearsal- almond butter pancakes w/ banana, egg, pumpkin, coconut flour. a couple of turkey sausages. grapes…..Then I baked about 5 chicken drumsticks in sesame teriyaki dressing, coconut flour, and the tahini dressing.  Proceeded to eat 3 of them and saved two for today.

1/30

Woke up around the same time as a weekday and made the almond butter pancakes and a couple of turkey sausages.

After morning “sting” rehearsal- free bombay chicken salad at cosi’s.

around 4- (picture ^ )the drumsticks and deviled w/ cucumbers and carrots, some grapes and a turkey sausage.

I’m happy with the progress I’ve made on the cooking and eating right.  The only thing that has sucked is the timing.  After class is a perfect time to eat some sugar (larabar) but with rehearsals 15 minutes later which sometimes include heavy dancing, it just doesn’t work.  what can you do? stop being anal…yes…make some lemonade out of the whole situation…yes…

Each day cooking is getting easier and I’m trying new things so I figure if I can’t keep up with technology I will be able to at least cook.  A rare commodity nowadays.

I also got to see Sting in rehearsal for the 153rd anniversary at the academy of music.  Nothing spectacular except that he played desert rose which was cool, otherwise I know there are bigger fans out there than me.

daily log 1/28/10

So i’m about 2 weeks or so into this thing and it’s not so bad.  Today I had a small setback.  I broke down in rehearsal maybe because I didn’t have enough sugar? Since I had woke up, my mind had a serious haze over it and I felt motivated to do absolutely nothing.  I owe this partly due to the fact that I didn’t eat anything after the workout the previous night until after class today.  That definitely plays a factor which I didn’t pay much attention to.  I thought I was going to have enough energy for class because I’d been only drinking coffee before class since monday and I hadn’t run into any problems.  My guess is when I finished with the gym my muscles, liver and other functions wanted a little more glucose of which I probably wasn’t getting enough of.

After class- 4 deviled eggs w/ avocado & egg yolk.  larabar. after rehearsal-turkey leg.

Upon returning home- Another turkey leg and an apple

After “sting” rehearsal around 5- salmon salad from cosi’s

Back home- Still decided I needed more food I had another larabar, some carrots and celery with almond butter, and about a half pound of ground bison w/ red peppers and mushrooms.  Shortly after I decided to finish off what little frozen berries I had with some walnuts and a little bit of pumpkin butter.

I just wish meat had more calories, otherwise I feel like I need to eat a shit ton of food just to maintain proper energy levels.  So far it’s been a guessing game.  Cooking is becoming easier. Cooking in bulk is key for sure.  And if you like deviled eggs, just mix the yolk with avocado and some paprika maybe and you are good to go.

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"daily log" 1/25-127/10

1/25

Hadn’t eaten any food before class. Decided to eat everything in a 6 hour period.

After class I ate an apple with almond butter.

Lunch- some beef with broccoli

3 ish- scrambled eggs w/ coconut milk, spinach, mushrooms, beef, pork sausage.  Half an avocado, salsa, and vitamins.  I ate early thinking so i could walk to school and not have to worry about dinner later.

1/26

Didn’t eat anything until after class again but can’t remember everything I ate because I didn’t write it down.  I know I made my almond butter pancakes though. I didn’t go to the gym because I still felt I needed rest.

1/27

Didn’t eat till 1:30 pm- Deviled eggs w/avocado &egg yolk (not bad).  Then canned salmon w/ mayo, apple, bacon, celery.  some carrots and almond butter. A salad with mushrooms and honey balsalmic.  a turkey leg.  bowl of pumpkin w/almond butter a few dates and cashews.

Hit the gym and hour or so after that.

"daily" food log 1/22 - 1/24/10

1/22

Breakfast-pancakes made with almond butter, couple eggs, coconut flour, pumpkin and banana. turkey bacon

after class snack- a few dates and cashews

Lunch- scrambled eggs with coconut milk and spinach and mushrooms, a pork sausage, half and avocado, and some salsa

Dinner- chicken breast, salmon and butternut squash.  Made sure I got a ton of protein after finishing a modified power law workout.

1/23

Since on friday i killed myself in class and then at the gym, my metabolism and appetite was ragin’ so I stuffed my face with whatever I could find yesterday.

breakfast-the almond butter pancakes

lunch-a little shrimp,beef, and broccoli. then lettuce with guac, salsa, and chicken. some nut butter with celery.

Dinner- almost a pound of beef with onion and carrots and garlic, some spinach. a bunch of grapes later on.

1/24

Fasting EATING today. some coffee. ma body says food. so i will eat.

daily log 1/21/10

Brekky- pancakes made w/ almond butter, 2 eggs, a banana, some pumpkin, and coconut flour

after class snack- apple pie larabar

lunch- finished off a ton of tuna salad, some cashews and beef jerky

Dinner- 7 wings, a bunch of beef with peppers and onions, asparagus. a bite of almond butter.

yesterday was a rest day. passed out around 10.

Daily log 1/20/10

Breakfast- pancakes made of almond butter, 1 egg, a banana, some pumpkin, and coconut flour. so good. a grapefruit, and some turkey bacon.

snack after class- larabar, some beef jerky and a few cashews.

lunch-ma tuna salad w/ cashews

Dinner- salad made of lettuce, cabbage, and mushrooms.  A pork chop, half an avocado and some salsa. wine

Note: the 40 lb shoulder press and 17.5 lb back fly in the previous post meant that much weight in each hand.

I’ve been getting bored with my gym routine so I thought i’d mix it up a bit and put a little more volume up top.  Yesterday I worked on shoulders mostly.  Today did 5x5 pullups, hamstring exercise on the bench, 21 reps of bicep curl, started at 50 lbs and ended up with 40 by the time i finished. 3x8 lat pulls on the bench. some ab roller.  I love going to the gym but there are exercises like the squat and dead lift that creates really strong pathways in the nerves when my legs are in the parallel position. That means I’ve got to do exercises to keep my turnout on top of that.  I feel great but i can’t really move from the couch. extremely tired and probably going to hit the sack around 9

&#8220;daily&#8221; log 1/18-1/19/10
1/18
Breakfast- Coconut flour pancakes, bacon, coffee, grapefruit, apple(above).
Afternoon snack- Celery stick with almond butter, beef jerky, larabar
Dinner- Pork chop, couple slices of bacon, broccoli, wine
dessert- 2 bananas with some almond butter, some guacamole, and about 8 hot wings.  (didn&#8217;t mind eating a ton because the amount of exercise was going to increase practically 10 fold compared to what i&#8217;ve been doing the past couple weeks, like sitting around).
1/19
Breakfast- &#8220;Pancakes&#8221; made from a banana, almond butter, an egg, and some pumpkin.  They were the real deal. I&#8217;m hooked. Grapefruit and some coffee
Lunch- small salad made of lettuce, slices of tomato and some chicken salad on top.
snack- Tuna salad made with tuna, celery, zucchini, red onions, and garlic which is half bad. spoonful of almond butter.
Gym time around 5 worked on shoulders, upper back, and abs. shoulder press and back fly(laying with chest on incline bench) 40 lbs shoulders and 17.5 lbs for the fly 5 sets of 5.  21 reps deltoid raises 12.5 lbs.  Also did good mornings for 3 sets getting up to 80 lbs from 50.  Ab roller a few times, leg raises on that dip machine. clap pushups, some forearm exercises.  Finished with pushups while stabilizing on two exercise balls. As time goes by i&#8217;ll find a way to incorporate my gym routine in a more organized fashion.  Some days I forget what i&#8217;ve done.
Dinner - Bison filet with asparagus and mushrooms and onions. Courtesy of Ted&#8217;s Montana Grill .  I won&#8217;t be going out again for awhile cause of that meal ha.
This is up to day 6 not counting today.  No problems with inflammation.  Pretty fricken tired after class in the AM.  still some headaches. my whole body feels limber but exhausted. mood swings are still there but the change in lifestyle probably can&#8217;t be held accountable completely but plays a part.  I clearly don&#8217;t have set eating times.  Lately i&#8217;ve been trying to make sure i&#8217;ve eaten an hour and a half or more before i exercise so digestion or anything doesn&#8217;t get in the way or working out.

“daily” log 1/18-1/19/10

1/18

Breakfast- Coconut flour pancakes, bacon, coffee, grapefruit, apple(above).

Afternoon snack- Celery stick with almond butter, beef jerky, larabar

Dinner- Pork chop, couple slices of bacon, broccoli, wine

dessert- 2 bananas with some almond butter, some guacamole, and about 8 hot wings.  (didn’t mind eating a ton because the amount of exercise was going to increase practically 10 fold compared to what i’ve been doing the past couple weeks, like sitting around).

1/19

Breakfast- “Pancakes” made from a banana, almond butter, an egg, and some pumpkin.  They were the real deal. I’m hooked. Grapefruit and some coffee

Lunch- small salad made of lettuce, slices of tomato and some chicken salad on top.

snack- Tuna salad made with tuna, celery, zucchini, red onions, and garlic which is half bad. spoonful of almond butter.

Gym time around 5 worked on shoulders, upper back, and abs. shoulder press and back fly(laying with chest on incline bench) 40 lbs shoulders and 17.5 lbs for the fly 5 sets of 5.  21 reps deltoid raises 12.5 lbs.  Also did good mornings for 3 sets getting up to 80 lbs from 50.  Ab roller a few times, leg raises on that dip machine. clap pushups, some forearm exercises.  Finished with pushups while stabilizing on two exercise balls. As time goes by i’ll find a way to incorporate my gym routine in a more organized fashion.  Some days I forget what i’ve done.

Dinner - Bison filet with asparagus and mushrooms and onions. Courtesy of Ted’s Montana Grill .  I won’t be going out again for awhile cause of that meal ha.

This is up to day 6 not counting today.  No problems with inflammation.  Pretty fricken tired after class in the AM.  still some headaches. my whole body feels limber but exhausted. mood swings are still there but the change in lifestyle probably can’t be held accountable completely but plays a part.  I clearly don’t have set eating times.  Lately i’ve been trying to make sure i’ve eaten an hour and a half or more before i exercise so digestion or anything doesn’t get in the way or working out.

yuetching:

chescaleigh:

nak1a:

tobia:

King said in an interview that this photograph was taken as he tried to explain to his daughter Yolanda why she could not go to Funtown, a whites-only amusement park in Atlanta. King claims to have been tongue-tied when speaking to her. “One of the most painful experiences I have ever faced was to see her tears when I told her Funtown was closed to colored children, for I realized the first dark cloud of inferiority had floated into her little mental sky.”
(via glorigloriglori-:proudvaginaowner:jlyndon:(thegrandarchives)




Give it up for a man who knew what was ahead of him, and faced it anyways.

yuetching:

chescaleigh:

nak1a:

tobia:

King said in an interview that this photograph was taken as he tried to explain to his daughter Yolanda why she could not go to Funtown, a whites-only amusement park in Atlanta. King claims to have been tongue-tied when speaking to her. “One of the most painful experiences I have ever faced was to see her tears when I told her Funtown was closed to colored children, for I realized the first dark cloud of inferiority had floated into her little mental sky.”

(via glorigloriglori-:proudvaginaowner:jlyndon:(thegrandarchives)

Give it up for a man who knew what was ahead of him, and faced it anyways.

"daily" food log 1/15 - 1/17/10

Fallin behind on this food log with no successful pictures because i like to eat my food before i have a chance to think about it apparently.

Friday:

Breakfast-Usual, Coconut flour pancakes w/ pumpkin and sunflower seed butter “paste”, turkey bacon, coffee, grapefruit.

snack- at a larabar after going to the gym

Dinner- pork sausage wrapped in turkey bacon, canned tuna mixed with guacamole, a whole zucchini.

Saturday:

Breakfast- Same as above except I put nuts and dried cranberries in the pancakes as well…fully loaded.

Lunch- went to chipotle and got a salad.  Lettuce with steak. guac, and salsa

Dinner-A cobb salad at TGIF’s and an apple later that night.

Today:

Breakfast- not until i got home around 11 30 from nyc. same pancake deal except i switched turkey bacon for legitimate bacon.

Dinner- several servings of pot roast, asparagus. glass of red wine.  finished off whipped banana.

5 days into it.  A couple of headaches, shortness of temper, joints don’t feel as inflamed as usual. One main difference I feel is how heavy my body feels.  not weight wise, but internally I feel lighter if that makes sense.  I still feel slight cravings for grains.  Hoping that by the end of this coming week my body will start depending on fat instead of carbs for fuel during exercise.

PA ballet’s two week layoff has come to an end. Looking forward to getting back in the studio and getting that hip rotation up to par.  Hopefully being back will also mean working on choreography.

In the fight between you and the world, back the world.
(Above is a picture of what I ate for lunch.  Tuna salad /w cucumber and smoked salmon.  I just put the salmon on &#8216;cause it is awesome for you and tastes yummy.  Otherwise the dish as a whole lacked in the taste department).
I&#8217;ve been trying to figure out why the hell this whole diet thing (primal/paleo diet consisting of meat, veggies, some fruit, nuts and seeds) is consuming so much of my time.  I believe it&#8217;s just due to the fact that it runs contrary to my former (more like in transit) way of life.  Seeing as some sort of grain consists of a large part of god knows how many meals when eating out that it&#8217;s forced me to figure out how i can make meals for myself and still live a comfortable life.  I figure wanting to change one of the most basic necessities/habits of our lives is going to be a pain in the ass.  From what i&#8217;ve gathered via the lovely internet is that some people like to post pictures of their meals online for various reasons.  Some do it because making food is an interest and a craft they are working on, for others it&#8217;s to keep track of what they are eating.  Mentally it allows you to have a clear picture of what you&#8217;ve been eating and the ability to remember it.  I&#8217;m also hoping it will help me stay on track with this shindig.  So for 30 days I&#8217;ll make an attempt to post at least one picture of a meal and write type the other meals.  I apologize if the food log keeps popping up in your news feed on facebook. My posts won&#8217;t be limited to this log.
Yesterday:
Breakfast-coconut flour pancakes w/pumpkin, turkey bacon, a grapfruit, coffee
snack- larabar (which i recommend if you are lookin&#8217; for a tasty snack bar.  all natural, they use dates to keep it all together.  high sugar but nothing is processed and dates are filled with nutrients plus fiber to reduce the carb factor.  It would go well with a protein shake to refill your muscles glycogen stores after a workout.
lunch- tuna salad
Dinner- chicken &#8216;n mushrooms, mixed veggies
dessert- whipped frozen banana
Today:
Breakfast- Same as above
Lunch- Tuna salad /w cucumber and smoked salmon (pictured above)
snack-larabar
Dinner- London Broil and Asparagus, red wine
dessert-whipped frozen banana
The added pressure of public opinion I hope will help keep the train on the tracks.  Oh and actually I&#8217;m not sorry if weird food pictures pop up on your feed because it&#8217;s the least of everyone&#8217;s worries. or probably should be.  Don&#8217;t forget if you have a question all you have to do is ASK. It&#8217;s anonymous if that entices anyone just a wee bit more.  I&#8217;d really love feedback or any type of participation in what&#8217;s goin&#8217; on &#8216;round here.

(Above is a picture of what I ate for lunch.  Tuna salad /w cucumber and smoked salmon.  I just put the salmon on ‘cause it is awesome for you and tastes yummy.  Otherwise the dish as a whole lacked in the taste department).

I’ve been trying to figure out why the hell this whole diet thing (primal/paleo diet consisting of meat, veggies, some fruit, nuts and seeds) is consuming so much of my time.  I believe it’s just due to the fact that it runs contrary to my former (more like in transit) way of life.  Seeing as some sort of grain consists of a large part of god knows how many meals when eating out that it’s forced me to figure out how i can make meals for myself and still live a comfortable life.  I figure wanting to change one of the most basic necessities/habits of our lives is going to be a pain in the ass.  From what i’ve gathered via the lovely internet is that some people like to post pictures of their meals online for various reasons.  Some do it because making food is an interest and a craft they are working on, for others it’s to keep track of what they are eating.  Mentally it allows you to have a clear picture of what you’ve been eating and the ability to remember it.  I’m also hoping it will help me stay on track with this shindig.  So for 30 days I’ll make an attempt to post at least one picture of a meal and write type the other meals.  I apologize if the food log keeps popping up in your news feed on facebook. My posts won’t be limited to this log.

Yesterday:

Breakfast-coconut flour pancakes w/pumpkin, turkey bacon, a grapfruit, coffee

snack- larabar (which i recommend if you are lookin’ for a tasty snack bar.  all natural, they use dates to keep it all together.  high sugar but nothing is processed and dates are filled with nutrients plus fiber to reduce the carb factor.  It would go well with a protein shake to refill your muscles glycogen stores after a workout.

lunch- tuna salad

Dinner- chicken ‘n mushrooms, mixed veggies

dessert- whipped frozen banana

Today:

Breakfast- Same as above

Lunch- Tuna salad /w cucumber and smoked salmon (pictured above)

snack-larabar

Dinner- London Broil and Asparagus, red wine

dessert-whipped frozen banana

The added pressure of public opinion I hope will help keep the train on the tracks.  Oh and actually I’m not sorry if weird food pictures pop up on your feed because it’s the least of everyone’s worries. or probably should be.  Don’t forget if you have a question all you have to do is ASK. It’s anonymous if that entices anyone just a wee bit more.  I’d really love feedback or any type of participation in what’s goin’ on ‘round here.

Cedar Lake Contemporary Ballet: Project 52

52 minutes worth of videos, once a week for a year. Each video is a minute long.

I remember checking out this project last year when Gabi said she was going to audition for this place.  Personally this is one of the most interactive dance company website i’ve encountered and something that should be given attention to. Pennsylvania Ballet was supposed to launch our new layout sometime ago I think.  I don’t really know what the deal is….But expect it soon! I hope.